Today and yesterday I had multiple moments where I thought about where I could be a week from now. Right now, in a week from now - I will have experienced my first full day in Kenya. Tomorrow in a week from now I will meet the lovely boy I sponsor: Melvin. And so forth...
Through those realisations the whole reality of me actually going to Kenya comes nearer.
Nervous for the unknown or to step out of my comfortzones. Anxious and eager to learn from the 'different'. Insecure or wondering if I will meet my own or the other ones expectations. Extremely excited to see those ones again I've missed for so long. Craving for freedom of mind so God and inspiration can make home.
My mind...
My head...my thoughts... *Sigh*
Some of them turn into emotions and all that mixed and broiled together, past week of final preps were more than a whirlwind.
Winding myself down...taking a seat and a moment to reflect, I question:
Why again did I do this? Why again do I go back?
Oh right...to explain in plain words something that beats in my heart. Nah, not just a beat. A colourful, dynamic melody!
Or does that sound too complicated already?
Bouncing back and forth from hardrock banging to classical tunes, from improvised jazz to obvious lovesongs...
How do I explain anything of MY melody that I hear in MY heart to you? :-)
Well, I guess we'll just have to experience and see don't we?
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